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weird...and kinda scary... [23 Jul 2005|09:18pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

I just can't help thinking about how different my life will be in just a few weeks. I mean, i'm actually scared and nervous about going away to college. if you don't know me, that's a very odd characteristic about me. I remember my first day of high school: not anxious at all, just excited about all the new people i would meet and friends i would make. what happened to that outgoing side of me? don't get me wrong, i'm still outgoing in so many ways... hell, Matt and I just banged eachother the other day behind the school while football practice was going on. i just don't know anymore. College is going to be so different than from high school. everyone at college is supposed to be so mature and adult, right? I guess there's no point in me worrying. I know i'll meet some really cool people and go to some awesome parties. (i think thats the part i'm looking forward to the most. lol) But i'm still going to miss Matt and all my girlfriends sooo much! i'm spending every little ounce of my life with them before we go off on our separate paths. What am i gonna do w/out my sexy man? lol and Andrea, Mackenzie, Sasha, & Kris.. BFF'S 4 lIfE!!! we definitely need to keep in touch while we're apart. only like a month left of summer!! lets use it wisely!!

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i am no longer a virgin!! [05 Apr 2005|06:02pm]
[ mood | enthralled ]

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and i am now one of the many senior's who ISN'T a virgin! woo! go me. i love my boyfriend.

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tired of this shit [12 Mar 2005|03:39pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

i'm sooo sick and tired of holdin out. so what if a girl needs a little pleasure in her life! AND i'm sick of being the only virgin in my senior class!!

fuck this shit.

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[20 Feb 2005|08:10pm]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

I didn't get the O.C. part (no surprise there), but.... I GOT THE NEUTROGENA COMMERCIAL!!! i knew i nailed it! well i don't start it yet til next month, but in a couple months you all have to look out for me on tv!

in other news, holding out is becoming tougher and tougher, especially when i've got the HOTTEST boyfriend alive. just thinking about him gets me this tingle inside and makes my nipples all hard. ooh i am getting turned on right now... but the good news is that my friend just bought me a vibrator! lol. i don't know, i haven't used it yet. just the idea of putting plastic in me just doesn't seem like it would do the trick. not like a warm cock would. hmmm... i am 17... practically everyone in my class has gone all the way. is it my time to give up my virginity? i have to admit the thought is a little scary, and i know the first time hurts... but after that it should feel wonderful, right? and matt is the greatest, he hasnt pushed me into anything at all. yea i don't love him, but maybe i should just get it over with.

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[06 Feb 2005|03:08pm]
[ mood | hot ]

just got back from an acting audition for a neutrogena commercial. someday i'd like to be a model for Victoria's Secret, but i don't think i'll ever be as sexy and beautiful as those girls are. oh well... i think i nailed the neutrogena one though. cross your fingers for me! oh! and my mom called my agent and he said he got me an audition for an appearance on the OC!! how awesome would that be? yeah i wouldn't have any lines, but the OC is huge and it could totally spark my acting career.

last night was saturday so i went over to matt's. his parents were out to dinner so we had an even greater night. ;) though i'm still a virgin. hehe and i'd like it to stay that way for as long as possible if i can hold out. I love Matt for not pressuring me into anything. making out with him as wonderful enough... and some other things clickCollapse ) guess i'll go now... bye.

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[22 Jan 2005|06:53pm]
[ mood | energetic ]

hey! well i told a lot of my frends about livejournal, but not one of them was interested! so i guess i'm left with the comments by annonymous strangers... which is more exciting. kinda fun and mysterious.
well anyways i had another audition yesterday, one i know i didn't make. oh well as they say "c'est la vie." i'm getting more into modeling now rather than acting. i love looking at the models in clothes catalogues (i'm no lezbo, really!) i just admire them for what they do... i have some modeling pics of me.. maybe i will post them later for you guys out there. (matt and my friends don't know about this jernal, it could be our little secret..hehe)
tomorrow is alex's party, but i dont know if i wanna go. i'm getting kinda tired of them... its the same thing every weekend. people drink, get drunk, flirt, drugs, and in the inevitable end have sex. but MYSELF on the other hand, well i am still a virgin. i'm holdin' out! :)
i have nothing else better to do, so i guess i'll go. it's always fun to get wasted and wake up in a stranger's living room or in a hot tub. ...not like i've done any of those or anything. :P
more updates later! maybe.

ps. i just got asked out by the guy of my dreams too! he has sexy written all over him. i think i found the guy who's gonna take my virginity away!

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[28 Aug 2004|03:26pm]
[ mood | mischievous ]

hey, i'm actually coming back! theres no point to this, i know. but i come here when i'm bored. so i guess its a good way to tell if i have a life or not. lol

good news: i don't come here a lot which means i'm not bored a lot which means i do things a lot which means i have a life.

bad news: school has started and i don't get to hang with my super spiffy friends as much.

school isn't as bad as i thought it'd be. it's been the most awesome year yet! i can't wait til next year... seniors rule the school, as they say. well its been great seein everybody i don't see over the summer. but boy do i miss summer!

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sup? [13 Aug 2004|02:14pm]
[ mood | confused ]

yeah no one knows about this still. i don't think i'm gonna tell anyone anyway. its stupid and pointless cuz like i never write in it. and when i do its not like a REAL update. heh. i just use it to get really really pretty icons. *_* <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

eh... i dunno i'm stupid. whats the point of icons if i don't even write in this thing? well you're answer is as good as mine. who knows, maybe i will use this. ta?

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squeal! [29 Jul 2004|11:10pm]
[ mood | blah ]

i luv my new background! wow its really sad that i put so much time into this and no one even knows about it. well yet... ha!

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... [29 Jul 2004|01:35pm]
[ mood | lazy ]


what do i put in these things anyway?




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